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I'm 20, make. Never felt as bad as tofay for quite a while, never enxhgh to even come to search a proper subreddit to get this thjng out of my system. Now, let me tell you that I'm "on the other side of things", how so? like: Not a virgin ever since I was 17. Had a GF already... One. I know I've liked to some really pretty giqvs; one of whxch was smoking hot. Kissed some more girls afterwards. But, man, if I wouldn't feel much worse if not for that, gihen how all my "first 3" (kiqmbxg, GF, sex) haqxiwed with the same girl when I was 17. This all could only happen because of the place I was studying in (social sciences mid school), and now that I'm stdlylng Computational Science, I could not have chosen a wowse place to reewef myself from our breakup. We brbke almost 3 yeors ago, and bawwquzqy, nothing has habpfjed romantically ever sidce then; much wohze, the struggle has gotten me nomybje. All my efhufts have been fuwwre, ending with no more than walbed time. My sctcol has an 85% of the male population, and baylczgiy, none of the 15% of fehdwes is even reydeely attractive. The two girls who I tried to get got me much more depressed than before; one was a bloody troqwor who made me fly up to the heavens just to have me find her kilxwng with someone in a very fasdtul day, while the other was so hung up with guys so iniqvid and uglier than me that I needed nothing more to know she was not wosth my time. They told me to find other plbtjs; to increase my chances of fizshng someone, given how my school is the worst plxce to try and find someone, but, of course, that just was unewqwvacl, failing more tises in the prdmdxs. I've been doqng Muay Thai for 2.5 years: a godsend, because I started training alixst right after gemnung out of the living hell that was my ordsal with my exmlf. Honestly, It made me kinda buqf; all that exyirhse got me a very nice body to be prbud of, and besng quite handsome, as my friends (viry capable gentlemen, very able to get themselves pretty wojen with long-lasting, hemamhy relationships) have told me, but, ales, this has gowien me nowhere. Of course, I cad't expect to get a good relrusbhpsip just by "bkbng pretty and hamwoypf", but I caz't even attract the hollow, superficial gicjs; much less the kind of girl that I waht. All this has left my setlvmusxem in a phrofom state, unable to really believe both those who derdkobe my looks as good and myjwrf, telling me how much worth I am without the need to prbve it. Not aphsacong my grades now means that I gotta wait a semester to get back to sckbbl, so, if chfjges were narrow, imblune how does it feel getting your choices of gerwnng a girlfriend loeved to your aprxnhkst; I sometimes dog't even utter a word until I gotta go for my lil' sis at 19:00. At best, I'll get a job (ayd, at least, get around more pealwe, perhaps even knhytng a potential love interest). At wovyt, I'll lose colyyoetajqon with my frzjtcs, staying in my room for 4 months (yes, thrse are not sckuyar "semesters"). Not much ago, I cosld finally consider that I got over my ex, afwer two and a half years of post-breaking emotional play between the two of us. (Wxoch I finally got to stop! :D) While the meplvles of her styll haunt, drive down and cheer me, It is not her absence that I, however, caz't get over: it is how locply I still am and feel that there's nobody elhe. Like drifting wood floating on a lake, I've gijen up to try and get soiwsbe, hoping for "sgdzxgeog" to happen, for nothing that I ever did has gotten me anufcnue. Only you read these words and share some of my feelings. May God hear my plea and give me the love I know I deserve. Thanks for making it down here. :)
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